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I’ve been avoiding this. Honestly, I’m really hoping Jesus comes back before I finish so that I don’t have to post it, or start Birthday Month. I know. Crazy, right? But that is how life has been feeling since December. Crazy.

If you don’t know, my husband is a mail carrier. Que jokes about how the postman rings twice. I really need to see that movie…that is probably why our dog likes me better…Anyway! It has always been our long-term plan to move farther south. I moved to Oklahoma City in 2020, under the belief that I wouldn’t have to deal with cold and snow. Someone lied to me and owes me a knee! But I digress again. The opportunity to make that plan come to fruition came in December of 2024. Another carrier posted in a postal Facebook group that he wanted to move to OKC, from the Tampa area, and needed someone to swap places with him. It seemed too good to be true, so we started implementing the plan. Without digressing on the gory details, three months later, we did it! 

We left OKC two weeks ago in the middle of the night, like a couple of hoodlums. We drove through to Alabama and stayed at a 50% shady Red Roof Inn. And then, finally arrived in Tampa on Thursday evening. Our dog was a trooper. I’ll add pictures of her so that you can all share in her suffering. Jerrad started work the next day, and I…I’ve just been here. Existing. I’ve loved staying home, making my own schedule, and doing what I want (well, what the dog wants), but now I hate it. I feel purposeless. I feel like my husband leaves the house every day and is in the world without me. I’m having major FOMO like I’ve never had before. And it is horrible. I cried yesterday, which I do not do that often. I think it’s only the fifth time I’ve cried in the 3 ½ years we’ve been married. I have nowhere to go. And, even if I did have somewhere to go, we only have one car, so I really don’t have a way to get there. We also don’t have a house yet. It feels very unstable. As though nothing is real, and there’s nothing to hold onto. Wait, am I having an emotional hurricane? It’s probably too soon for that joke…

I know I shouldn’t compare, but I remember this being fun in 2020. Or maybe I was just running on adrenaline and caffeine. I’m not sure now. But it has been anything but fun. It has been internally depressing. Part of the decision to move down here was that I would go back to work. I spent three months fighting for my couch potato rights, but now that we’re here, I think that would actually be the best thing for me. Don’t tell my husband he was right. Nothing good will come of it. Actually, it so rarely happens, I think I’ll give this one to him. You’re welcome, Honey Boo Bear!

At least I can laugh. I haven’t lost my awesome sense of humor yet. Anyway, tomorrow is May 1st. Que Justin Timberlake. I really wasn’t into him until I watched ‘Friends with Benefits’. It is now one of my favorite movies. I should watch it. Maybe I’ll do a Movie themed Birthday Month. Ooo!! That sounds fun! I’m in! I feel better already! So, I’ll make a list of movies and watch them over the 30+NOYB Days, and blog about them. Jerrad is in charge of everything else. 

Yes, that’s right. I’m putting my husband in charge of Birthday Month this year. I threw him a kickass Birthday Month, so we’re in a competition. May the Best Birthdayer Win!

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