The OK Adventures of Peppersloth and Annie

I know I just blogged, but today was great, and I just really felt the need to write about it!

                I went into this weekend with a lot of emotional apprehension. It was this time a year ago that I slipped into a deep depression that I really did not think I would make it out of. I remember that weekend like it was yesterday, and it honestly feels like it was. Thinking back makes every fiber of my being hurt. I feel nauseous, angry, and incredibly sad. Whenever I look back on this weekend a year ago, I feel stuck in time…as though a part of me will always live there, no matter how much time passes. So, going into this weekend a year later, all I felt was terrified. BUT! Like a good scout (which I never was) I was prepared!

                Knowing that this weekend would be an emotional challenge, I made a plan to get myself out of the apartment. One of the worst things for depression is to sit in it. You shouldn’t avoid it, but you shouldn’t wallow in it either. I set an alarm for 8:30 am…on a Saturday…I digress…and started my day with some intense Jesus…okay, fine! I turned my alarm off at 8:30, slept until 9:00, and THEN had some intense Jesus! There was also coffee. I even did a workout! On a Saturday! And I was out of the apartment by 10:45…ish. I went to the farmer’s market, and found the cutest loose leaf tea infuser ever! It’s a GREEN T-rex! I am basically in love! I also got some zucchini and an onion. Hello, stir fry! The place where the farmer’s market is held is a huge park! It is definitely a place where I could spend lots of time!

                After the farmer’s market, I went to a local coffee shop. I tried a Root Beer Americano! I think I like the Coke ones better, but it was interesting!  I sat there for two hours, reading. It was so nice to just sit there. I even got to people watch a little bit. A couple even put on a PG PDA show! Gross. But it was fun! After two hours, the A/C got to me, and I had to get up and move. Also, I had finished my book. The next one in the series JUST came out. Normally, I do NOT fandom, nor do I buy books new. Most of my books are new-to-me. But, I had a gift card, and I wasn’t ready to go home. So I made the fifteen minute drive to the bookstore and bought the book. At that point, it was almost 3:00, so I drove home and started my new book! It was a fantastic morning and afternoon! It didn’t totally keep the bad memories, or feelings, away. But it was enough to get me through without a meltdown. After only one year, I’ll take that.

                While the farmer’s market, coffee shop, and new book were great, the best part of my day came this evening. I logged into Oklahoma City’s website and had SEVEN GUEST TEACHING JOBS WAITING FOR ME! I have been in a slight panic over the thought of no income. While seven isn’t a lot, it is a start and it was a reminder that God has my back. I am so excited for this next chapter in my OK life!